Negative Human Emotions

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As a gamer, I used to be baffled with the concept of “rage quitting”, because at the time, I wasn’t the kind of person who could be easily angered. I unconsciously converted my anger into sadness and tried to work from my failures into something a little more productive (if you can call gaming even more productive).

Nowadays though, I’ve lost my cool every now and then whenever someone wipes the floor with me at a game, or whenever someone does something stupid. There’s this incessant need to correct them, and I don’t mean to be a smartass or a know-it-all, but I couldn’t control the impulse to just try and tell them what to do and what not to do.

What changed me? Continue reading “Negative Human Emotions”


Procrastination: My life’s never ending battle


Literally everything productive is a chore to me. Including writing this blog.

I realized recently that I write this blog whenever I have something else even more of a chore to do that needs to be done. My brain sure is a pain, I mean I’m a video game addict that finally got my habits down to only 2-3 hours a week and I still don’t have enough time to do much anything productive!

My room isn’t always a mess because I clean it whenever I have something else to do. Goes the same for my laundry, clothes, shoes, the files on my laptop. I try to do something productive but I do something else less productive.

I can’t really sleep properly either because anytime I’d have something to do, It’d be stuck in my mind and I’d tell myself to do it. I just end up not doing it and doing something else though.

I might even end up contemplatng about how human a sentient android who’s indiscernible from the real thing is. Like if it has a soul or feelings or is that all programming, or both. I think about crazy stuff when I have nothing else to do.

The ethics of human cloning too. I don’t really get how we’re playing god since we do the same thing when we have sex right? I mean old Chinese families would literally try until they have ten daughters to have one son back in the old days.

Or maybe it’s when you implant fake memories or turn them into slaves that’s unethical. Yes, there’s a big potential for it to be unethical, but the things you could do with it! Like test out diseases or replace the deceased. Wait, that’s unethical. Aah my head hurts!

Wait, what was I doing again? Oh right. I gotta get to that uh.. thing I gotta do. Again.

My very first blog post

Greetings readers! This is my very first blog post.

At the time of this writing, I have no idea where this blog is headed off to, what I’m going to continue writing about or if anyone’s even gonna read this piece of trash excuse of a blog! To be honest, I’m typing all this stuff in on a whim and at any time, I could stop updating this blog because I currently have no attachments to it. Nope! Not a single bit whatsoever!

On the off-chance that this spirals into something big however, I want all of you to know that this is where it all started. All on a whim when I just felt like putting stuff out on an internet website that’s asking me to pay more for more features, just like any other freemium website!

This is all for me and my own satisfaction. I ain’t writing all this for anyone else but myself. For now. Probably. So seriously! If I bore you in some way, just stop reading. If I offend you, tell me and I’ll keep that in mind next time I write, so I can improve myself. If you’re here to piss me off for shits and giggles, by all means! Just don’t insult anyone else but me.


Let’s start with myself. You may call me Mr. Dr. Man Sir, because really I can’t think of any other name to log in with since Aequanimus was taken. You may call me Mister, Doctor, Man or Sir. Or Any combination of the four.

I’m currently 22 years old, male. Currently in a relationship. I’m somewhere in the South East Asia area. I don’t really do much besides attend my college, studying ways to manage a business and just getting by with video games.

I am a simple man. I browse 4chan every now and then, never post but just lurk. I also watch anime every now and then. Besides that there’s not much to talk about.

I’m joking, there’s actually a lot about myself that I haven’t talked about but we’ll cross that bridge when we actually get there, which is probably not gonna happen anytime soon.